Slipping

by Geddy Lee

Meant to tell you, tell you from the start.
Meant to show you what's inside this shallow heart.
But I could not find the words worthy enough to say.

I've slipped along the way.
I've slipped along the way.

I'll try to be there when you fall.
Try to make feel big, when life makes you feel small.
But I could not find the steps quick enough to take.

I've slipped along the way.
I've slipped along the way.

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This one is for Chona, Mai, and hopefully, Jeanette.

I'm not very good at love. My wild swings in emotion can devastate both the strongest and softest heart. I don't have the horse-sense sometimes to hold my tongue or be smart enough to smooth out my rough edges when it comes to the ones I love the most.

I have a pet phrase along the lines of: "I will only regret my future if I don't learn from my past."

Well, the lessons I learn each time out in the world, betray me, more often than not. The mistakes we've learned from lovers past usually get fixed, at the expense of journeying into new frontiers. Those new frontiers throw new challenges at us, and we are usually ill prepared for those new challenges.

But we try the best we can.

Even now, Chona says her love with me was the deepest she ever felt. Well, I think I loved her greater than her father. My love for her was all-encompassing. Unfortunately, I can't say that for Mai - but only because of the lessons learned.

And, I know her father thinks she's pretty special.

I think that also stems from my relationship with Julia. Althugh she wasn't my daughter, I loved her so. I would've done anything for her. I still would. I don't want her to suffer through the mistakes of life - but I know she will. Her mistakes will be vastly different from mine - and that is her journey to take.

I often think about "do-overs" - and the way life goes and the way we make choices based on everything coming our way - the people and the circumstances that drive us forward. I guess I wouldn't change a thing, because I'd hate to lose those glorious romantic moments I've faced with those I've loved.